What color is the sky in the world you live in?

I'm in only few steps away from residing myself to Bali, I am always faced by few simple questions i haven't been able to answer yet, like..what do you see your life there like? what do you expect to achieve there on your own? what kind of change do you want?

One thing certain is that I am so excited to remodel every aspect of my life..
what's really funny is that the one thing that i kept on thinking about is this empty space which i would call my home, my own place, finally..
i already know what i want it to look like, how i would do it..totally got nothing to do with life remodeling and it's just the superficial part which totally excites the crap out of me..

Maybe i should just move my butt really quick..
Maybe the whole getting my own place and making it look the way i want it to look will be a good trigger for me to get this thing on the road already..

Each time i play the whole idea in my head, I can faintly hear the song "When The Sun Shone on Vetiver" from Devendra Banhart's Rejoicing in the hands..

You have to start somewhere..

there are those moments where i am so fascinated in reading other people's blogs and get so consumed on how they can just freely express themselves, whether it's about the daily lives, their music or just simple random things...
I always wanted my own blog, but i do not see the point of having one, because i have nothing much to tell or share with others.
I admit I can be a downer as person because i never really have anything positive to share, and in a point where i find myself feeling that i should just swallow everything down to the pit on my stomach *gulp* and not risking losing more friends or bore people to death with how generic my life has been lately.
plus i am not one who is into writing about day to day but i guess i have to start somewhere.

This year started with a bang..not the good kind!
it's like the mighty hand of God just smack me across the face to make me realize that I need a huge change in my life, and that I need to be a new person.
I am not a very happy person in general, though I am pretty sure I have a potential to be one.

I am on a mission..i call it " Pursuit of Happiness" and no! don't tell me that's the title of a Will Smith movie, because i'd smack you!

On top of the list is of course Self-discovery and change.
the root of my mission is just getting myself together and letting everything go...and finally be able to find some peace and happiness within myself.
it's always been the biggest question in my life..who is Anette?